These are what one alleged victim called "creepy love letters" he received from Jerry Sandusky.
Once again, I have decided to write some of my thoughts. I write because you mean so much to me.
I write because I am concerned about all of us. I write because I have seen the hurt on Tim's face when you don't show for him, even though you have given your word. I write because of the churning in my own stomach when you don't care. I write because I still hope that there will be meaning to the time we have known each other.
Tim and I have seen this before, had similar experiences, and to be honest, not very happy conclusions. You like to express yourself in a straight-forward manner, this will be a very direct message from us.
We seem to be a convenience. When it is convenient or a better deal comes along, you leave a trail of broken promises. Commitments seem to be meaningless.
You are able to bounce from person to person, object to object. You seek happiness through control, domination, and what satisfies the moment. You have to hit the home run, swing for the fence. You don't understand or choose not to worry about loyalty, commitment, or caring. The motivation is to get what you want regardless of others.
On the surface this may appear to work for you. People enjoy your youthfulness. Different people show up to give you temporary fulfillment.
We could be wrong but don't believe that this works. Our experience shows otherwise. You will get older. People will expect more. Your youthfulness will disappear. If you cannot care, you will not be able to live up to the expectations. Your so called "best friends" will vanish. Happiness will escape your life.
You might want to stop and think about true happiness. It seems to come more often when you don't try as hard, look to just get a single, reach out to others, lose yourself, become satisfied with plain, simple people who care.
It's your life! You continue as you have, keep looking for happiness or you can find it. We'd love to be a part of your life, but that's your choice.
We've been here, made it through some challenges. We want to always be there for you!
With some hope and a lot of caring we are:
Jer and Tim
I hope that writing some of my thoughts will not annoy you as much as I do personally.
We have known each other for almost two years; gone through many highs and lows. There was tremendous encouragement as we went through last summer and into the fall. You seemed like you had bought into everything and were doing well. Those who had poured out their guts for you, stood by you, were there when you needed them, swelled with pride in your accomplishments.
Somehow this all slipped away. Agreements with people who really care about you didn't mean anything, you started missing school, your attitude, grades, and self-esteem dropped.
We tried many ways to get you to do your work but failed. You kept driving us away, it became clear that there were only two ways to make a difference in your life, and they weren't working, somebody had to care enough to take control and help you succeed. Tim and I cared enough but were not in that kind of position. The only other hope was that you would, attach to us, care enough, and want to please yourself and others.
Inch by inch you continue to drive those that love and would die for you out. Instead, you bounce from one person to another always measuring what others are willing to do for you.
Where are we? Discouraged, but we're still here, hope to remain.
When it comes to school, I concur that there is nothing that I can do or say that will make a difference, however, there is always hope. Maybe you won't quit. Maybe you will decide down the road to make an effort. Maybe there will be some way that you will want help in the future. I will be there as long as you want me. I'll stand by you as a person who has been a large part of my life. I'll always care.
I see you better in soccer, playing hockey, etc. hopefully you will not throw these opportunities away. There is so much that I enjoy about you, you have special qualities. Hang on to the ... experiences whether you want us there or not. When it is all said and done remember us as very plain people who cared, tried, and always wanted to be a true friend (there in the clutch).
You will always be meaningful to us!
Keep climbin! Keep on keepin on!